10 Years of Gratitude

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10 Years of Gratitude

Postby erinhue » Wed Nov 18, 2015 12:37 am

It has been 10 years since my life ended. In a long drawn out blink of an eye everything I ever wanted was gone, gone forever and forever unreclaimable. The shock, pain and pure simple horror were so sharp that I will freely admit I was crazy for a time.
The wound has healed as much as it ever will. The pain has become a hidden, sneaky thing that lays low and bides its time only to up with full force with a sometimes surprising unexpectedness. I know now that I will carry that pain until I too can leave this place and sail into the West.

After one hellofa God smack I was forced to realize that I had to pull it all together and make up my mind to live. That little boy who became my reason to go on is now a young man that would make anyone proud. From time to time I catch glimpses of the man he will become and my heart is filled to bursting.

I post this out of gratitude. It was a long, hard road that still has its dark turns and you sweet brothers and sisters of the boards have stood by me all the way, even when I was crazy. That road was lit with the candles of your caring and those little bright spots lead me back into the Light. I thank you and love you one and all. I will be eternally grateful.
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Re: 10 Years of Gratitude

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Re: 10 Years of Gratitude

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Re: 10 Years of Gratitude

Postby Gamgee Wench » Wed Nov 18, 2015 8:53 am

I think the adjustment to a "new normal" is one of the hardest things to do, and we all do it differently. Life throws us curve balls, which change the present and future reality, and it can never go back. Its not fair, but life never is. It helps to have a place to vent, scream, cry, or just read quietly during the adjustment process, which is ongoing. Some do it quickly, some do it forever.....no way is wrong.

So glad you found peace here Erinhue. So glad you stayed. :) (you have been a blessing to others, too!)
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Re: 10 Years of Gratitude

Postby Vanaladiel » Fri Nov 27, 2015 1:44 am

Erinhue no words can tell you how very much we hurt with you at that time and since. I know we did not know TLoYL personally but we knew her as well as we could through your eyes and love for her. She will forever be a part of TORC as well because we grew to love her through you. :hug:

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Years and years of gratitude

Postby prmiller » Thu Aug 18, 2016 9:25 pm

Your life and struggles touch us all;
your laughter, tears, and teasing voice;
all these are you, and how we sing
to have you here! Yes, I rejoice!
I cannot find sufficient space
to list my gladness for your love,
that earth is richer for your heart
that makes us yearn for heaven above.
Your friendship I have cherished long,
your words that nudged me on and on,
how much I celebrate your life,
as bright as stars, as loved as dawn.

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